Held POINTE by Brandy Colbert in my hands for the first time on Tuesday. Finished it on Wednesday. Wrote about it today, Thursday. To say I couldn’t put it down would only be exaggerating slightly. To say I can’t stop thinking about it would not be exaggerating at all.
Four years ago Theo’s best friend, Donovan, was kidnapped. Four years, two weeks and one day ago, the person Theo believed she was in love with, Trent, dropped off the face of the earth. When both Donovan and Trent come back into her life in dramatic fashion, a past that is as complicated and painful as mastering multiple fouettés on pointe rears it’s ugly head.
Theo has ballet. She has friends. She has two loving parents. On the surface, there’s not a lot going against her. But she’s also involved with a boy who’s taken, struggles with her body image, and begins to feel the pressure of getting into the best summer intensive programs the ballet world has to offer.
And now her best friend has been found.
Theo was the last one to talk with Donovan before his disappearance, and she has questions, but he isn’t talking. Not to her. Not to anyone. While she struggles to piece together what happened four years ago, her life slowly unravels. The only way she knows how to regain a measure of control is through various forms of denial. She denies herself food. She tells herself it’s okay to be with a boy who won’t publicly acknowledge their relationship. She denies her role in Donovan’s disappearance, even as something inside her begins to finally understand that she, too, was a victim.
It all comes to a head at the trial of Donovan’s kidnapper. Will she or won’t she expose her own secrets to put away the man who started it all?
At different times during the story, I literally gasped out loud. And there were many more times when my heart broke and horror made me sick to my stomach and cold all over. The closer I got to the end, the more on edge I was – not only for the incredibly nuanced characters and the closure Theo desperately needed, but that the finale of POINTE would match the amazing, twisty, unforgettable dance leading up to it.
And it did.
I really, really hope we get Donovan’s story someday.